Who are you to define another?

Expansion: Sculpture by Paige Bradley

Kintsugi - Japanese Art of fixing antique or broken pottery with lacquer resin either dusted or mixed with gold.

Soul searching and time alone are some life essentials a lot of us deprive ourselves from. I'm no guru in how life works but my have I been trying to find out! So while strolling the streets of Bangkok by my lonesome, I did have plenty of 'this city is so beautiful I need someone as beautiful to share it' moments. Nonetheless, I trotted on, and well, let's just say I am learning to love this person deep inside.


While thinking - oh, you can't help thinking when you are with your thoughts day in, day out - I had this Eureka moment! There is this person I have been obsessing over and my constant thoughts are: if he won't do this, why should I be bothered? That is my downfall really - waiting to get the reaction I want and not bothering much to be somebody anyone would need.

We could blame it on past scars that don't seem to fade with the hands of time; but why should the past be a heavy cloak that only holds you back?

I know I am not alone in thinking 'I want somebody who is like this or that'; 'oh, he is doing that, he is sure gonna get it!' I have mastered the mindless child games but only now am I realising they are plot for you to lose sight on what it is you saw in the other person to begin with. And as the saying goes, there is a fine line between love and hate and sometimes, the frustration that comes with the emotion and mental fights, lead to unnecessary hate and turmoil.

Long story short, here is what I found  out from my Eureka moment:

Have a little Patience

I know I lack patience - I'm like a volcano waiting to erupt at any moment really. The irony? I expect people to be patient with me, without limits. Always quick to point out flaws never available to compliment. Well, if you expect love, girl you have to tame that burning heart and practice a little patience!

What is Love?

I talk about the kind of love I want but never ever do I catch myself thinking about the kind of love I am willing to return. Princess, the world does not revolve around your big head - be the kind of person you say you want - let love flow and love will come right back in your direction!

What is most important though is to remember that we are all just human, searching for someone to have our angels and demons dance with.So never ever expect the world from people while you relish in your own self desires and expectations - trim that forest in your eye before pointing out a speck in somebody else's.

Just like you, I am only just learning that I am not perfect and you aren't either, so for once, I am willing to change who I am for the better, love like I have never done and see what happens!